This blog is up late so I'll have two updates today. I've been worried about so much that I feel dysfunctional. I mean, I can still do things, but I just don't want to do half of them anymore! An example would be cleaning my room, I need to but it doesn't mean I want to. I mean I'm going to have to do some DEEP spring cleaning soon. It looks like several tornadoes came through wreaking each corner of my bedroom. I don't know what it is about cleaning that just never motivates me. I suppose I have to be in the mood to clean, which is true, but it doesn't help as half of the time I'm on the internet, and most of the time it's YouTube the rest it's Spotify. Another thing is, I about an hour ago, hit an all-time-low as I had started chewing on whatever the little ring is called on a water or soda bottle. I chewed on plastic! What the hell was I thinking? Have I falling into a "vortex of boredom?"
Another thing that has to pertain to an earlier topic that I think I've mentioned. Either way, I'm not scared of dying, as I'm scared of the inevitable, and I'm excited for the future. We have these goals that we want to achieve, my problem is knowing whether or not it's going to happen. Maybe it's because I'm 16 and a teenage girl that has dealt with so much bull, that seeing myself achieve these things is getting harder. I'm working on it, but everything I do seems basic, like I'm not an overachiever, and I can be, it just depends.
As it's almost 1 a.m. I'm going to go to sleep, because I feel if you don't go to sleep right when your body tells you, you won't be able to sleep later which is what I've been trying to do lately so. Good night.
Ta Ta For Now guys,
~Jax
(p.s. sorry this was short I was going to write this earlier but it didn't go that well. Soz...)
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