Hello

     This is not my first blog. I've blogged before, but now is the time I'm going to actually try. Keeping a diary is really hard for me, I like to physically write but, this seems easier to keep track of things online. And because its the first of March, why not? On this blog, I'm going to write about lots of things, most of which is my opinion, and you don't have to like or agree with it. This is just going to be a way for me to vent and essentially share stories and dreams. I don't know what all I'll put. I mean, What stories do I start with?
     I guess the main thing right now is deciding what I want to do with my life. By this I mean I have an option to go to a career center or stay at my high school. Scheduling is a struggle, because I haven't got a clue what I want to do, I shouldn't have to choose right this second, but there's SO much pressure! If I go to the career center I can bother my brother, the only things stopping me are band, and some AMAZING teachers that I won't be able to see. It's really hard not to break into tears right now. I don't want to wonder "What if" because you can "what if" ANYTHING! I just want to be happy, with the decisions I'm about to make. I feel like I'm about to have a panic attack. I spent a little time talking to my mom which unfortunately, wasn't really helpful. I mean, thanks for trying but it didn't help me, it just made me a little more depressed on the subject. This is why it's better to figure things out by myself, I hate asking for help, it's even more annoying when you know that person doesn't help or that persons answer seems wrong.   "We are all Independent minds in this universe that can do everything and anything we've ever dreamed of. There's no point in living if you're not going to do it!" ~Dan Howell (danisnotonfire). I live by this and unfortunately THIS doesn't even help the situation I'm currently in. 
     I'm sorry for sounding like such a Debbie Downer, but I'm so upset that we have to choose what to do with our lives as soon as we hit high school. I recommend watching Dan on YouTube if you haven't already, he's helped me through a LOT. 
     Ta Ta For Now guys,
                ~Jax