Endlessness

     Sorry I haven't been here for a while. I had one of my busiest days yesterday. I had rehearsal straight after school until 5. Then I had to be at the middle school for a Band performance at 6:45 until 8- 8:30ish. It was SO LONG! I digress, because it's all worth it in the end. While I've been typing I've been listening to Muse's newest song Psycho, 1D's You and I, 5SOS's Amnesia, Daughtry's Waiting For Superman, and Fall Out Boy's newest album, American Beauty/American Psycho(my favorite band ever!) All good things.
     Right now I'm waiting for a YouTube video to come up, afterwords, I have rehearsal at 5:30 so, hopefully that video goes up soon! Next week is "Hell Week" and "Tech Week." Hell week because of 2 hour test's for graduation, each morning. Then Tech week for rehearsal, Our 1st performance is on Thursday for Senior Citizens, then 20-22nd is for everyone else. I'm SO NERVOUS and REALLY EXCITED! Just got done creating an event on Facebook, because I need the moral support. . . Is that dumb? Oh well. 
     One of my teachers told the class "You need to stop living in the moment." 
And I just thought; "How else CAN you live? People say 'Stop focusing on the past and look to the future' others say, 'Focus on the now, and REMEMBER the past and your future will be alright.' " Well. . .I'd do anything to be young again. I know I'm only 16 but not having to worry about life and other people was SO MUCH MORE FUN than now, where you actually have to care. Growing up sucks. The only good part is getting to do things you couldn't when you were younger. Even though, in my experience, life got harder, I also grew and even though somethings I did were stupid and EXTREMELY cringe worthy, I'd NEVER want to relive half the things I already went through. My life could end tomorrow! But there isn't a tomorrow until 12:01 a.m. What I'm saying is, when I was younger I didn't care and I was happy. Today I ask myself "Am I Happy?" and "What makes me happy?" and I can't answer because I don't know anymore. There are plenty of things that CAN make me happy. But for right now? I no longer know. Life IS hard but it STILL moves on. Time is endless, Possibilities are endless, and even though life ends, it's endless until(in my case) God calls me home.
     Ta Ta For Now guys,
          ~Jax